Thank you everyone that is following me, there is quite a few of you that I know near nothing about. Anyone have anything to say or ask me?
If I turn out to be half like you I will feel a giant accomplishment in life. You have been the one rock in my life, when things with mom were horrible you were there for me. You had money but you weren’t the kind to toss it around, you are quite shy about it actually I hope that I can take that humbleness from you. You have had such a bad love life and you went through it all with your head held high. You never let a woman make you feel down, or if they did you didn’t show it. You work so hard for everything you do; you never do anything half ass. I love that you would drop everything to help me if I needed it but you wouldn’t give me everything for free so I didn’t become spoiled. You are always there when I need help with my car or moving or frankly anything. But by far you are the best listener ever.
There are days when I cannot stand you, and what you did to my sisters and I. I hate the traits that I have taken from you. It terrifies me everyday that I am going to turn out half like you. There are days when we get along great and have really meaningful conversations but we fight a lot. I think the fact that we no longer live together has helped us not kill each other. I wish you had more self confidence and didn’t always need a man in your life. I hate what your mother did to you and your sisters, no one should have been treated the way you were. I guess there is a part of me that will always love you even if you drive me bat shit crazy.
I don’t have a best friend anymore, not since I moved away.
I hate that we arent friends anymore. I have dreams all the time that I run into you and tell you how I’ve been thinking about you, we end up being friends again. Almost as good as we were before. But I cant talk to you anymore. You chose my sister over me in a time when it was not your business or place. I miss how we would lay together in your bed at 2am on a school night talking. I’m sorry I would get so irritated with you and tell you to shut up and leave me alone. I hope you know that you were a good friend once. You were the one person that I could tell anything to, and you didn’t judge until the end. I had always wondered if you felt anything more for me and in the end you told me after a drunk night over sour puss and coconut rum. I miss you every day.
Ugh I have about two weeks worth of tumblr to catch up on.